Saturday, April 6, 2013

No more perfect people

It's been awhile since I've posted but I felt this so strongly on my heart today, so I feel like I need to share.

I'm not sure exactly what is the root of my hurt these days but today was the breaking point. And, I got to a place where I couldn't contain the tears, or the anger. I was on the way to my friend's baby shower, bawling my eyes out. My first thought was, great, now I'm going to look like a mess and people are going to ask questions. I told God I just needed to be told I was loved and that I couldn't be the strong one this time. Then this song came on the radio and it spoke to everything I was going through at that exact moment. It challenged me. How "transparent" am I willing to be with those closest to me? How "transparent" am I willing to be in ministry? I felt God tell me, I needed to trust those closest to me that when they say they care and are there for me, those special few actually are. I've been burned in the past and had my weaknesses thrown in my face, so it's a tough thing for me to do. But, I felt an assurance that I needed to do it. So, in separate times today, I have. I have shared it, I have asked for prayers, I have cried and I have been TRANSPARENT. And you know what? has blessed others. I have had one person tell me they were blessed by my story and another share that they were going through something similar and quietly hurting.

So, it makes me many of "us" out there are struggling but putting on a happy face? I challenge you, brothers and sister's in Christ, to be honest before God and with yourself and share your deepest hurts when you feel prompted. You never know who may need you to take that first step or what blessing you may be withholding by simply being obedient.

Listen to this song and just meditate on it. Does this describe you? I'm willing to bet it has applied to each of us at one point or another...if we're being honest.

Thank you for reading and I'm praying that God may use this for His glory.


Thursday, September 8, 2011

Hospitality - A commandment from the Lord

I'm not sure what happened to me between the time I was in high school to now. I used to be a social butterfly and now I tend to prefer being a homebody. I believe there is a time and place for both, however, in an effort to not only honor God, I am also looking at ways to honor my husband. One of the things I have come to learn about my hubby is his desire to surround himself with other people. This is a stretch for me. Not that I don't enjoy and love my friends, but the extra effort and work to prepare food, make sure our home is clean and is a welcoming environment can become exhausting. But lately, I have felt God working in my heart and challenging this laziness. So, through numerous hours of blog reading and time with the Lord, I can say I am actually beginning to have joy towards this idea of hospitality.

So, what is hospitality? A good friend of mine,
Erica, shared with me her findings on what hospitality is and isn't.

Hospitality is NOT the same as entertaining.
When I think of the word 'entertaining', I think fake. It's a time to put your best foot forward in an effort to impress and gain man's approval. But hospitality is so different. It is a way to bless those God leads you to bless. It is a way to share in each other's burdens and joys. (
Galations 6:2) It is a way to break bread and have edifying conversations. And, it's so much more...

Hospitality IS a commandment from the Lord.
1 Peter 4:9 Offer hospitality to one another without grumbling (This one I am still working on, but hey! I'm a work in progress :))

Hospitality IS reaching out to those that you do not know very well and may even make you feel uncomfortable.

Luke 14:12-14 He said also to the man who had invited him, “When you give a dinner or a banquet, do not invite your friends or your brothers or your relatives or rich neighbors, lest they also invite you in return and you be repaid. But when you give a feast, invite the poor, the crippled, the lame, the blind, and you will be blessed, because they cannot repay you. For you will be repaid at the resurrection of the just.”

Hospitality IS a way to bless those God leads you to bless.
Romans 12:13 Share with God's people who are in need. Practice hospitality.

~Thank you for taking the time to read this post. I must be going now as I have to prepare my home, heart and spirit for a hospitality opportunity tonight. I hope that this has made you think and meditate on what hospitality truly is - a command from God. ~

Be blessed,

Monday, August 1, 2011

Trial #1 - Jobless - Do you trust in me?

Hello, and thanks for stopping by! Now that I have more time, my goal is to update this blog regularly as a way to share (according to 2 Corinthians 1:3-4) what awesome things God is doing in our lives, challenges we are going through and how HE brings us through them. To Jesus be all the glory! Now, I need to catch you up on what has happened since my last post...

I am now a happily married woman and a stay at home wife and soon to be mommy. Yes, we found out that we are expecting our first child!

Since leaving my job, we found out in the middle of July that the hubby's contract would be ending at the end of the month. And on top of that, we found out that we are expecting our first child too. We are SO excited, but with the added excitement, comes concern too. So, without freaking out, we began planning. See a few months back, God laid it on my heart to start doing the Dave Ramsey "Peace University" program, and with that, we started a savings and rainy day fund. It is that very fund that will help carry us through. Praise God!

Hubby started looking for other jobs and preparing his resume to be passed around - I am so proud of him! The week that his contract ended, we received a random phone call from someone we met at our homegroup, offering an interim job - what a blessing! I believe this is just what we needed to confirm our faith in God that he WILL provide. So, thank you friends for being obedient to what God has laid on your hearts, you will be blessed by it!

We aren't sure exactly how long this job will last, but in the meantime we are doing our best to have faith. My job at home is to find practical ways to live frugally, figure out things we can sell, and make sure that my hubby is taken care of and feels supportive. I have been researching cheap ways to eat and learning the art of couponing. My prayer is that each week, God gives me more and more wisdom on how to stretch our family's money.

Stay tuned to see how God will be working in our lives throughout this new season of trials. And, please comment..I would love to receive encouragement, tips, etc!

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God bless you, my friend.

Saturday, February 26, 2011

Discovering my inner Proverbs 31

I first would like to thank a good friend of mine for reminding me of the scripture Romans 8:28. It was this verse that led me to writing this blog.

Yesterday marked the second day I would be sick at home and not at work. After being reminded of this verse, I went to God and asked him to reveal his purpose for me being sick. I opened my devotional, which I wasn't able to find until that very morning, when as I was laying there sick on the couch, I found it hiding under the coffee table. The devotional talked about how if it's not something God has called you to do, then don't waste your time doing it. For whatever reason, this really struck me.

After some more quiet time with God, I decided to peruse through Facebook. Who am I kidding? We don't peruse..we stalk! Anyhow, I came across one of my friend's pages who is about to have a baby, a baby girl to be specific. The reason this is important is because she only has experience raising a baby boy. Knowing that, as her facebook post showed, she has been spending her time learning how to make pretty little hair bows for her new baby girl. Right then, I realized that my brain just doesn't naturally work that way. I put myself in that situation and thought to myself, if I were her, would I have even thought to research how to make homemade bows, let alone, would I have even thought there was a difference between raising a baby boy and a baby girl. Then it dawned on me, she was doing that very thing my devotional had spoken about. The other day, she said that she knew her calling from God was to be a wife and mother, and she was using her time wisely to prepare for her calling.

It was then that God revealed that he has called me into marriage but that I haven't been doing anything other than the occasional wedding planning to prepare. God has blessed us with a specific example in the Proverbs 31 woman and it is our job to do our best to become that (only with God's strength, grace, patience, and forgiveness he shows us).

For those of you who have known me prior to my Christ following days, you know that I have never been known to have a desire to be a housewife. And, the thought of me actually enjoying cooking, cleaning, supporting and encouraging a man was never something I was looking forward to doing. By the grace of God, I can honestly say for the past year God has been doing great work in me in preparation of the day that I become a wife and eventually a mother. Though it's been rough, I can say with a smile on my face, that I joyfully look forward to June 18th, 2011 when I become Mrs. Paris.

28 And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.